I apologize that my last post left you all hanging..things just got so stressful. I feel like I can now, finally catch my breathe and recap for you all what has transpired. To summarize my last post, I talked about my husband getting ready for major back surgery and announced I was pregnant with another baby due Thanksgiving.
My husband was diagnosed with Stage 5 Spondylolisthesis, Basically, the vertebrae in his back got severely out of order, his nerves were pinched and the only fix for his severity was a fusion from L-3 to S-1. So on July 7th, my husband had his major life changing back surgery. He came through it with no complications and everything went better than expected! We were told about numerous complications that could arise, however, my husband had NONE! Not only that, but all his nerve damage, has completely gone away. God is good.
|His back before..|
|First time standing after surgery.|
|6 week post opp x-ray|
I guess now would be a good time to mention, I had the baby! I'll do the introduction in another proper introduction post, filled with tons of adorable baby pictures, but for now, I'll do a brief recap..
At 20 weeks, while Tony was in the rehab, we found out we were pregnant with another beautiful perfect little BOY! It was a bit of a shock, because I swore up and down that I was surely pregnant with a girl this time, but nope! :) Needless to say, the "big" boys were thrilled!
|31 weeks and 6 days pregnant..|
Have you ever got punched in the stomach so hard, it takes your breathe away? I have, and I can honestly say that's what that moment felt like..just in slow motion.
In that moment I couldn't speak, I hung up. Jumped back into my car (I just got home from dinner with a friend) and sped to the hospital. I made several phone calls on the way, no words came out really, just tons of screams of wailing. When I got there, I was met by my older brother and my dad.. they had told me what happened. Apparently, she had an asthma attack and basically, the lack of oxygen put too much pressure on her heart and it just gave out. The paramedics were able to revive her. Yet she was in critical condition and completely unresponsive. She actually had a pulse less heartbeat and in a coma.
Family and some close friends filled up the waiting room area that night...We were briefly let back to see her. I can't say for certain when exactly my mom passed away, but looking at her in the er, with her open eyes, she wasn't there anymore. Her once life filled eyes were empty, kept alive only by machines. I didn't give up hope then though, but I knew deep in my heart she was already gone. They spent the next two days trying everything in the their human power to heal my mom, but it was to no avail, she was declared brain dead on September 2nd and we surrounded her bedside and said our goodbyes.
|Dominic and my niece, saying goodbye to their maw-maw|
I thought I've been through painful times before, and I have, but losing my mom was a heartache I've never experienced before. My heart, literally hurt. And, honestly, 6 months later it still does. You only get one mom in life. Good or bad, there is only one and mine was gone. I was almost 7 months pregnant when she left. That was one of the hardest parts, knowing she would never get to meet my son, her grandson.
Words can not describe the gratitude I have for my closest friends, my husband, and my therapist. I don't think I could have made it through it all with out them. It was rough couple of months. September flew into October, and my aunt gave me an amazing baby shower, that my mom was actually planning for me. : /
It was beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. I am just so thankful for the love that was shown to my little man! And then finally in late November, the day before Thanksgiving at 3:18 pm, our little guy made his debut! He was and is absolutely perfect!
|Day 1, Thanksgiving 2014|
I am so thankful that God brought this little guy into our lives. He truly has been the silver lining in 2014. So, here we are, well into the new year, I'm slowly learning to take deep breathes and enjoy each good moment given, because one never knows what life will throw at you.